You've got a date with someone and it was arranged a long time ago. You can't even remember agreeing to it and quite frankly, you'd like to give it a miss. You're convinced this will be the date from hell. Thus, a whole world of escapist tactics have emerged. Special Forces would be hard pressed to run an operation as subtle and complex as your avoidance strategies. Every time you think about the date you break out in a cold sweat.
You've kissed a lot of frogs it's true but as the Scots say, that's the way it's aye been.* To calm the anxiety the impending date brings, you remind yourself, you are so much more than enough. The air is scented with burning sage, your ears filled with mantras, the music of dolphins adds another note, while you bow, namaste you say before a crystal alter – amethyst is soothing you've heard.
Your date is no mystery to you, you've known them on some level your whole life. Everything else, all the avoidance and the soothing, the feelings of not good enough expressed in locking lips with amphibians, the affirmations of good enough that pay homage to frogs and more – all just smoke and mirrors in preparation for the date. There is no comfort needed, what is cannot be avoided, what has always been is already there. It's aye been.
You're feeling uncomfortable, it's true. Is there any point in telling you that hell is made of runners, forever running in their minds. You're tired and you're scared and that's okay. It is what it is. Or not. It's just as uncomfortable as you wish it to be until you're ready to set yourself free. So do it. Go on the date and don't judge the feelings that come up (none of them), nor the one feeling them. Let it be. Bring your presence and open to the cluster of emotion at the root of it all; it's vibrating, this energy on the move. E-motion, designed to flow.
So know, there really is and never has been any wrong or right, avoidance or soothing and nothing you say or do will make those things true. The stuff of smoke and mirrors. You are not enough, your are not more than enough. The truth is always, infinitely, unavoidably and beautifully...so simple. When you're done running, kissing and calming and whatever else your mind contrives there is just this, your date, the one who waits. If you listen carefully, deep in the quiet you will hear, 'I am' (the one).
*'aye been': Scottish, from the Borders meaning 'it's always been (this way).'